Robin Cross

As a child, I’m not sure how I came to believe in God. I don’t recall my parents ever bringing God or prayer into our home. I do remember that a Sunday School bus came around to pick up children and families in the neighborhood. I was “all in” and dragged my sister along, and several neighborhood girls as well. I could never get my parents onto that bus, but I soon had the church coming to my house. I know that my father trusted one or two fellas that would come to visit.

My parents received Jesus as their Lord and Savior and were baptized. I know they listened to a record by one of the gentleman. But they never prayed with us, or even went to church, which is still true to this day. Not that I think my parents don’t believe, but it is something they do separately and privately, so I am told. Anywhere I would go for several years, I wanted to be in the house of the Lord. Even on vacation I would visit the local church or the revivals they used to have at the campground. But no one in my family would join me. Soon it was only me who would go.

It was when I was in the 7th grade when I changed to fit in with the crowd. I had no identity, so I thought. I became a bully and a class clown and very disrespectful. I thought it was cool.

That was the year I started skipping classes and was introduced to marijuana. By the end of the year I was popping speed pills and drinking alcohol. That continued throughout the summer. I wanted to be one of the cool kids and wanted to be known by everyone.

In 8th grade I made friends with a popular girl who attracted all the boys. Well, I wasn’t nearly as pretty as she was, nor did I have her build. She would tell me how great sex was and about all of her partners. They were all good-looking football players. She would always tell me I should try it, although I had no one interested in doing it with me.

There was an older man (age 21) renting a room in her house who she had been intimate with and insisted I cut school and hang out with them. So I did. He came to the kitchen as I was standing there. His girlfriend was waiting for him in his room. He said he would love to take my virginity from me. So, as my friend, Michelle, watched, he did, bent over me in the kitchen. It seemed as if only thirty seconds went by, and then it was over. I couldn’t understand the big hype. But I found out I could get pregnant in those 30 seconds.

As the months passed by, I contemplated suicide or running away. On a suspicion, my mom took me to the doctor when I was 6½ months pregnant. My innocence and childhood were gone. I remember my dad’s harsh words were that no man was going to love me, they were only going to want one thing from me. I never imagined this would happen to me. I thought I had to be a junky that some man would pick up out of the gutter. My father’s damaging words became just what my expectations were. Slowly but surely I lived up to them.

Unknowingly, I became an addict the first time I used drugs. As the years went by, my use of drugs and alcohol increased. I thought everyone used drugs and alcohol.

Not only was I an addict, but I also had a perverted mind. I thought that sex was the only way to please a man, and later, even women. I was married for six years and had two more children. When I divorced, I really went wild.

I eventually lost all three of my children and continued spiraling downhill. Soon, I was introduced to a new lover: heroin. I was told I had to quit drinking because these two lovers mixed together were lethal. The next morning I did not drink. I gave up drinking from sunup to sundown to stick a needle in my arm.

Instantly, I was in love and addicted. After only a week of using, I experienced dope sickness. I lost my job after 15 years, my home, and sadly my children. I had a nervous breakdown and went into a deep depression. I cried every day for over a year as I continued to use more and more heroin to hide my pain. I would shoot 24 bags a day. In just nine months I went through $13,000, all there was in my 401K.

When that was gone, the female I was involved with and I began a new career. We would rob and steal, and dance, and hustle for our dealers. It was the hardest work I’ve  ever had to do to maintain my addition and keep from getting sick. The woman I lived with went to jail, and her parents put me out after a year. I became homeless, bouncing from house to house.

I was in a drug rehabilitation program where a fellow talked about angels. At the time I didn’t believe in angels. Then God sent two angels to tell me about some truth in my darkness, in my Sodom and Gomorrah. I was outside when a fellow pulled up in a car and told me to get in. I did. He was the most beautiful being I had ever seen. He told me amazing things about myself; he spoke life into me. Before getting out of his car, I turned to him and asked whether he was an angel. He only smiled. I got out of his car and turned around to thank him, and he had vanished, nowhere to be seen. 

I entered into a long-term rehabilitation program. Everyone greeted me at the door with hugs, saying, “Welcome home.” I knew I was home. Although I wrestled with God often as Jacob did, He would sit me down and quiet my spirit. He would say, “Be Still and know that I am God.” He told me that quite often. After being there for 18 months, I saw the light of truth and surrendered to His will. I had only been deceiving myself, but I knew He saw me, all of me.

Editor’s Note: Today Robin is happily married and works for a nonprofit that serves homeless and food challenged people in her community.

More Faith Stories

There are people who sometimes have a stomachache and think it's cancer, they think it is a terminal illness. Sometimes people think there is no solution, but it is only a stomach discomfort. It's something bad that you ate that upset your stomach. It is that people that are losing their faith. They get concerned about so many things. They wake up and see the car with a flat tire, and it is a bad day.

There are more important things we need to learn. We need to seek the Lord, because time is short, time goes by quickly. I've got three children: my first daughter is 25 years old. My son is 21 and my other daughter is 16. I mean, time goes by fast.

This means this is an opportunity for you to devote your heart to Jesus Christ, so that He can save you, so that He can be your guide, so that He can be your path, so that He can be everything in your life. Listen to this message, share it with your family. If you do not have a family do not think you are alone. God is with you wherever you are. God will be with you come what may.

Now, what happened with COVID two years ago was unbelievable. God put us to the test. Many people died, and that's something that's coming ahead. There will be more illnesses, there will be more regulations. But if we keep our faith in God, if we continue to trust in God, He will give us the peace we need, the peace the world needs.

Sometimes in the community, there are a lot of people who are watching their backs. For their own protection they hire bodyguards that watch over them night and day because they feel insecure. But we have God to protect us. Day after day, God protects us. God takes care of us. God gives us strength.

I strongly encourage you, I dare you to seek the Lord. This Why I Love Jesus ministry goes across the globe spreading the word of God, telling the world Jesus Christ is real, He is not dead.

There have been many stories in this world which were looking forward to changing history, but we have this story of faith that we believe, come what may, the Lord will be with us.

So if you have relatives, share this experience with them: brothers, sisters, parents. If your family has never been in contact with Jesus, now is the time for you to tell them to embrace Him, to embrace God. Tell them about the story in the Bible that says there is a man in hell, being burned there, and he would like to have a chance of getting out of there. But unfortunately, he has already lost the opportunity. In other words, there is no way he could leave hell.

And you who are there watching this testimony, this word of the Lord, this is the opportunity that you get. Maybe we don't wake up tomorrow; we don't know what will happen tomorrow.

This is the moment for you to say, "Lord, forgive me. I have failed a lot; I've failed in several things, but I want You to be my Savior, I want You to be my shield, I want You to be my strength, I want You to be everything in my life."

Make your decision. Sometimes in day-to-day life, we make decisions, many of them, but this is the most important decision you should make in your life. That is to devote your life to Jesus Christ, commend your life to Jesus Christ, so that He can be everything in your life. May He be your peace, your strength.

At times, people have enough money in the bank and think with that they will change the world, think that will be their protection. But money is only an ordinary piece of paper. In the end, the paper will run out, the money will run out, but treasures we did will remain when we're in heaven.

So let's make this an invitation. Let's hope this message will reach someone in need of it. So you who are out there, this message is meant for you.

My stepfather was an alcoholic, and we had a difficult life. But God changed us. When I began going to this church in 2000, God changed me. God changes you, and God wants to do great things with your life.

So, I mean, maybe you are also having a hard time with an alcoholic father, an alcoholic mother. Let me tell you, I had bad thoughts in my head about finishing him, killing him, destroying him, so that it all would end. But when I got to the feet of Jesus, when I started going to church, God made changes in me. God makes changes in you. God changes your mind.

When God entered into my life, and I looked at my stepfather again, I saw him in a different way. I held a grudge inside my heart, but nevertheless, God was working on me. God worked on me and gave me peace. I was smart enough not to commit a crime. God showed me the way I should live.

In addition to being at peace with God, He gives you intelligence. God gives you wisdom to be on the side of right every day in our lives.

So, this is an invitation, whether you're a woman, or man, or youth. Young people sometimes make decisions which scar their lives forever. To put it another way, if you are young, make your decision to accept Jesus: don't wait until tomorrow and say, "No, I'd better wait before accepting Jesus Christ, before accepting God in my heart. I've still got a long way to go. I want to live my life, and I want to do things. When I'm older, I'll see whether I change." But we don't know what happens tomorrow, so you should make up your mind today.

I've had some friends who made their decisions too late. I had a friend who said he was going to drink his life away. He was going to drink, that's what he was going to do. He was going to do drugs, to live a totally careless life. He thought he was being cleverer than God. But he wasn't, nobody is smarter than God. At the end of his life he was going to seek God's forgiveness.

Had God been given the opportunity, He would have forgiven him, He would have indeed. But my friend didn't take the trouble to get to that point. He was doing his drugs, drinking and whatnot. Then he grabbed a gun and shot himself in the head.

I mean, we don't know what was the last moment in his life, whether he asked forgiveness or not. We only had the word he killed himself by putting a bullet in his head. Odds are he didn't have the opportunity of begging God's forgiveness, and he lost his life. Or better expressed, do not let the enemy fool you. The enemy hampers your life.

That means to move on and accept Jesus Christ. He is going to give the answers. He is going to give you the peace you need. That's my testimony, and I know this is on behalf of God, so people would turn to Him.

People get lost, people haven't wanted to recognize their faults. God has a plan for your life. That means if He gave you this plan, accept it, accept it. We have free will, people make their own decisions. God has already chosen some individuals. God has predestined people. Whether you are predestined or exercising your free will, make your decision and follow Jesus Christ.

Your life will change, He is going to transform it, and He is going to help you in every way, be it economic, social, psychological, whatever you need, God is going to help you.

Thank you for your time, thank you for this opportunity that God gave me to share my faith. I come from Houston, Texas, but I've been working here in Delaware, and this is an opportunity God has granted me to share good news and continue to spread good news. We're the ambassadors of the word of God. So thank you for this opportunity, and let's move forward with this testimony which is for the benefit of society.

Bill McQuiston

Bill McQuiston

In May of 1982 Carolyn and I went on a Lutheran Marriage Encounter Weekend. Here was where God opened my eyes and heart to his role in my marriage and life. That weekend changed my relationship with Christ.

Barb Lambert

Barb Lambert

I wasn’t raised in a church; so I knew nothing about Jesus or God. I did go to Vacation Bible School in the summers and heard and loved the song, “This Little Light of Mine.”