Have you ever been so lost that you didn’t even know which way to go to find your way home? My whole life was like that until I found a “spiritual GPS system” for life.
I grew up in a pretty good home, second son (of four kids) of an Army officer. Since we moved 14 times before I went away to college, I don’t remember ever going to church. I wondered if there was a God, but the question was an intellectual exercise with no real attention to my life. Until I went to college.
Freshmen year I took a course in Literature that should have been labeled, “The Meaning of Life Course.” We read books by authors that questioned the purpose of life if there was one.
All came up with the conclusion that life had no meaning. Earnest Hemingway was my favorite. He concluded that life was “nada,” nothing, empty. I thought about my life and I had to agree. When it was all added up, my life was going nowhere. Had trouble even deciding what I wanted to study at school because I didn’t know what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. “Nada.”
Sophomore year I got an upgrade in dorm room and roommate. Roy had been the quarterback of our dorm’s intramural football team and I was one of his favorite receivers. Roy was a straight arrow, an engineering student like myself (though he was electrical—I was willing to overlook that, being a Mechanical Engineer myself). He was a Senior, a great student, and dating Patty, a real sweetie. He seemed to know where he was going in life.
I had no purpose, no reason to live, no direction in life; so his words struck me in the heart.
In March I had an argument with the girl I was dating and when I got back to the dorm I started talking with Roy. We talked about relationships and life in general, and Roy shared with me about his relationship with God. He shared that “You cannot find out why you are here in life until you know your creator, who made you for a purpose.” I had no purpose, no reason to live, no direction in life, so his words struck me in the heart. We talked until 3:30 a.m., when I asked Jesus into my life to give me purpose and direction. That night changed my life. Thanks, Roy!
All of a sudden, I knew which way to go and what to do. The Bible opened my eyes to a spiritual world all around me. Jesus was no longer just a person in history, but a friend and constant companion, someone to turn to for direction and guidance. I no longer felt “lost.”
Sure, I still had questions, but I saw God lead me to answers to every question I had, and every doubt. Life became an adventure. I became a better student, a better person, content, secure in where my life was going because now, I was going with God. He has never let me down, never led me astray. Life is still a challenge, but I have the assurance that God is leading me every step of the way.
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You see, I never used to pray for myself. I thought I was being selfish by praying for myself, so I would always pray for everyone else but never ask God for anything for me.
I was so surprised because my young child taught me much about faith – my faith – so I had to be faithful with my God.
I cannot explain to this day what happened next. Suddenly my car went out of control for no reason. I’m on the New Jersey turnpike and there’s a truck next to me, a truck behind me, a truck in front of me. I said, “Oh my God, I’m going to die.”
I remember her giving me a little booklet and there was a lot of singing. Then she gave me this picture of this beautiful man with a little glow behind him, and she says, “That’s Jesus.”
The people that were doing the auditions with the African Children’s Choir came to my church and they were looking for children that could sing. Because I was active in Sunday school, I was chosen to be in the very first African Children’s Choir in 1984.
I was 12 in a small Baptist church when the pastor made it very clear that a decision needed to be made to accept Jesus and to follow Him. It was a very sincere commitment to surrender my life to Jesus when I was 12.